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| I haven't writen my diary long time ago. I think the main reason why i didn't write anything in here because i dun want to keep all the bad memories. In this 2 months, it got lots of things happened. I broke up with eugene and Michael went to thailand for his new job. My life suddenly like a drama. I got a really bad of ending. It is hard to get a good ending in my life. it seem it is impossible. I think it is time to start my new life if i can forget him. Now i totally understand the love theory. When u do something for your lover, you can't expect him to do same thing to you. It is the rule of the games. Who break the rules then who will lost the game at the end.... In October, it is a birthday month. So many peoples born in this month includes myself. I can remember last year, i still got Adam to celebrate my birthday. This year i got nobody, maybe i won't got any presents or nobody will remember my birthday. Since i went to melbourne, not many friends still will do somethings for my birthday. Maybe they are all busy for their stuff. Before i was in hong kong, my milk son and the other friends would eat dinner with me... I would received few birthday presents, cards and birthday cake. I miss the day when i still 18. My mum and my brother still bought me a present and ate dinner with me. But now, I talked with my mum yesterday night, i told my mum my birthday is coming up and she gave me a reply was dun waste money to spend present to your place la... Wait you come back and give you money to buy something u like. My brother also gave me a same respones. I think it should be the most unhappy birthday in my life....... Dun want to think about it....... | | |
| Back to melbourne for a while, the 2nd semseter started 2 weeks already. Still missing the day in adelaide, hang out with karlie and Andrew every night... Meet a new friend Jamine, she is a nice gal. So happy to dance with her in club. Damn crazy!!! 3 whole nights clubbing... Dance a lot... Back to melbourne, clubbing again!!! Catch up with Joyce!!! we hv long time no catch up already....Kenna asked me to go Hush bar with her, then i took joyce out to club with me. Felt so bord inside... just chilling out with fds for a while.... dance a bit... Maybe i wasn't enjoy asian club at all... i couldn't enjoy the music and dance in the stage. Joyce seems really enjoy the music, dancing with few guys for a while. it was my first time to wear mini dress to go to club, i felt so uncomfortable....Friday night, went to lavish with joyce again. It was damn crazy night..so many ppls inside the club. Hard to go in the stage and dance. But it was not the main purpose i went to lavish. I felt so disappointed because he hadn't gone to lavish. The only things i could do was dancing with joyce...tried to enjoy the House music... when we were dancing in the stage, suddenly it got 4 guys around us. A bit scare... mini dress and high heels made me feel very uncomfortable. I always feel like fall down on the stage. All of sudden, i fall back on him my boy Eugene. I dun believe that i would do that kind of stuff in the club... i mean crazy dance with guy. He is the only one get all my attentions in that club. And also i couldn't imagine he would fall in love with me.....
He is the only bf who treats me very well... the day after clubbing, we started getting know each other. He is so cute and charmful. Typical European ....Gentlemen!!! i can feel that he always there with me.... he is the guy who will put gf first... i enjoy the times with him... i like him to pick me and send me back home... I like he takes me out to take a walk at night. I like him always keep me warm!!! Thanks god give me that good boyfriend i never met before....i love his hug, his kiss....etc...I am looking forward we can take picture together!!! because i like him...
My Babe Boy Eugene
me and edwin's sister
Edwin and me
My mum & brother's birthday
me and Joyce
Me and my best fd Hilda
Me and Hilda and my parimary school classmate Sam | | |
| I haven't writen diary long time ago... so lazy! I back to hk nearly 3 weeks.... damn hot in hong kong. Dun wanna to go out much.... if i was not come back to fix my teeth... i dun think i would come back...3 more days i will back to melb...i miss the day in melb.... i hvn't contact my fds much.... i just saw edwin, rosita, serena, anita, hilda.... i gaind lots of weights in melb due to winter in there... always eat and eat... that's why didn't want to see too many peoples.... luckily, i lost weights in hk.... otherwise, i couldn't buy any clothes or jeans in hk.... That's the main point i back to hk... if i couldn't buy anything, it is meaningless. My life seems very mess.... Many things were change since i back hk. Sometime i always think if i didn't come back, all the things wouldn't change... all the relationships are going to be fine. But i hv no choice. i need to come back. The only thing i can do is i need to improve myself.....try my best to change better and better..... i knew that it is stupid behaviour.... but it also the only thing i can do to get back all the stuffs..... i can't be the loser.... dun ask me it is worth or not.... because it is hard to calculate..... i am sure i am so silly.... | | |
| I just came back to melbourne.... I hv a really gd times with Karlie in adelaide...Thank you so much... I luv u babe.... She showed me around the adelaide and also introduced so many fds to me..... Thank you Max and andrew..... Especially thank you mimi, Brian and 44 (Karlie sister)....Her family members take cares me so much.... I have a really gd times in her houses.... and also i met karlie's brother Derek.... He is a nice guy.....hahaha ....In these few days, i went to Haigh's chocolate factory, Harbour city, Casino, Hahndorf, Adelaide Uni, Central market, Soul, Red square....etc.... I thought i gained few kgs when i back to melb.... I need on diet now.... I really love mimi's cooking....and i had fews really nice dinners with karlie and i started to miss the dessert restaurant Spat and the Oyster Bar..... I will go to Adelaide because i really hv a nice time in there...... I won't feel bored when i was in adelaide.... thx you very much u guys especially my best fd karlie
Hahndorf
Nice Dinner with Karlie
Harbour City
KARLIE'S BROTHER DEREK AT AIRPORT
Oyster's bar
Haigh's chocolate factory
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| Everything is over..... finally i broke up with Adam..... I tried my best to keep the relationship already, i knew he also tried to change his behaviour but at the end we knew that we won't work out. I knew you changed a lot already. But i am the girl who really like my bf spend time with me. I didn't need you buy any expensive presents or go to classy restaurants. i can understand you are busy in weekdays, I only want you spend time with me in weekends. Do you think it is too much to you? I get hurts. I came over to Glen Waverly, just wanted you no need to take a long drive. But you still chose to go out with your best friends. In your mind, friends, family, and your work are the most important things. That's enough!!!! I didn't want to cry in front of you. I feel so sorry to make you feel gulity. I couldn't control myself, i got a hard feeling. I feel lost........ at the end, you said " Belle, you are the first gf i take serious relationship, I know i won't change my personality. It is the way i am. I am not good enough for you. you can find a good one soon. You always my gal in my mind, i won't forget you." Did i make a wrong decision? I dun know... I need to take times get over it. Please leave me alone!!! | | |
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